have you ever cried in an interview?

why, yes i have! i did today. i had an interview at the church we've been attending. i applied for the position of "church secretary". a lot of emotion has been filling my heart & soul for the past 6 or so months and a lot of it came to head today in my interview.

i've had a relationship with Jesus for a long time now but it has been more real to me now than ever. it's been a challenge moving away from home and starting over again in a new town where you don't know anyone. i've been searching for a job for over 6 months and have been frustrated from the lack of response. i finally decided to hand this over to someone who has control...someone who is already in charge and knows my future...Jesus. i know He will make all things work together for good and i know that He only wants the best for me (and for all of us). it's hard to trust when we don't know what's going to happen. i've had people ask me "how do you trust?", "how do you have faith?", "how do you apply those things?" for me, i get up every day and talk to God. i tell Him that my life, my day are in His hands...I give them to Him. it's a daily process of a focus on Christ. not only that but it's the Bible. i read it. i read the truths that He has given us. i believe those truths and i stand on His promises. i've learned so much about myself the last several months. a relationship with God doesn't happen over night. it doesn't happen in a couple of years. it is something that has to be cultivated and practiced every day and takes a lifetime. but it's a relationship. think about the relationships we have in life...friends, family, co-workers, etc. we invest our time by talking to these people, going shopping with a friend, going to concerts, spending time going out to dinner or having them over for a cook out, even going on vacations. God wants the same from us. He wants to spend time with us, getting to know us and sharing His best with us.

so why did i cry in my interview?

one simple question:

"how would you describe your relationship with God?"